That’s the last text I got from her. She won’t talk to me now. I don’t understand…it shouldn’t be a big deal, and I don’t get why she won’t talk to me about it. I don’t like being in limbo. Not knowing where I stand feels worse to me than rejection. I’ve tried not to think about it or let it get to me or just keep it in, but fuck it, my feelings are hurt.
It was supposed to be an awesome night. Everything was planned and she (I’ll call her E) seemed really excited to hang out with me and this other friend. I just had a feeling that it was finally the right time to tell E how I feel and I was getting the vibes earlier in the week that she at least had a crush on me. But all that never happened because I fucked up big time. To condense the (first part of) story, the main thing is I invited one of her older sisters to come hang out with us which completely screwed everything up. Pretty much the older sister didn’t want me and my friend coming over to their place to drink because she got caught with friends over and such before and got in trouble so she wasn’t going to let E do it if she wasn’t allowed to, I guess it wouldn’t be fair? So because I mentioned this to the older sister the whole night got screwed up and we couldn’t hang out like we were supposed to.
So I got really drunk with my buddy and E apparently got drunk with her sisters (I didn’t know she was drinking at the time) too. We were periodically texting each other throughout the night but long breaks between texts. So then around 3AM she sends me a text saying something like have we ever talked about us being together like a relationship? To which I responded no, we should talk about it, but we should wait till I’m sober. So a few minutes later she responds basically like I’m sorry I shouldn’t have texted your phone it was a bad idea, bye. She didn’t respond after that. I texted her the next day just asking what’s up not even mentioning the previous night or the text. She never responded. It was killing me and I wanted to know so the day after that I sent her a text asking if she remembered what she sent me. Her response was the title of this post. She didn’t respond after that.
So yeah, I’m really bummed. :(